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Finding Yourself

You may be wondering, what I mean by finding yourself. What does it mean and why should what I have to say matter?

Well, what I have to say may or may not matter to you, but I strongly believe everyone’s opinion matters. We all deserve a voice.

I’m new to blogging and that means this is a new adventure for me. In my process of finding myself, I’ve decided to start a blog. What will it be about? Well, I’ve never been the kind of person who likes to be limited. It will be about whatever I want to write about, but I am open to suggestions.

Let me introduce myself. I am a photographer.

I may not be a professional photographer quite yet, but I wouldn’t say I’m bad at taking photographs either. This is also another adventure I’m trying out. What can I say? It’s about time I do things I’ve always been wanting to do but never truly had the guts to do.

Ever since I was in elementary school I enjoyed taking pictures. I didn’t own a camera until I got into college. I remember the rush of excitement cruising through my veins when I first bought my own camera – that was just a couple of months ago… The featured photo is a preview of one of the many pictures I’ve taken.

I am also a writer.

I love writing. I will admit I have a love and hate relationship with writing. I love that I can create something new using the art of words, but I hate writer’s block. Who loves to be stuck in a muddle and not knowing how to continue an unfinished business? I certainly do not.

I dreamed of writing my own book someday. I was about 13 when I wrote the first few pages of a book I never finished. Then I was 15 years old when I gave writing a book another try and yet again I stopped writing after a few pages. This was my life until I got into college and gave it another try. Finally, I wrote something and although it took me two years to write because I kept losing faith in myself, I did it. I wrote a book. I hired someone to help me edit my book and decided to self-publish.

I found myself as a writer. I did not give up. Even though it’s a difficult life for a self-published author, especially for a person like myself, who wasn’t smart enough to realize that in order to sell books I would have to market my book. I had no audience, to begin with. What was I thinking? I would write a book and magically many people would read my book. No. That is not how this life works. Yeah, I did not make a big splash as a published author and I’m still trying to make that splash. Hopefully one day I will be able to say I wrote “L’s Precarious Reality” and people will know who I am. Until that day comes, I will keep trying to gain more readers and I won’t stop there. I will continue to write and not lose faith.

I want to write a sequel and write some more. Everything and anything is possible if we all just put in the hard work.

I am also a poet.

I love writing poetry. I’ve been writing poetry since elementary school. I like how it’s so open. Everyone is free to use whatever pattern one wishes to use and why not say what you want to say in a creative artsy kind of way? I think it’s fun and pretty awesome. Poetry is pretty awesome.

I am also an introvert.

You see that’s where the issue arises. You know how I said I need to market my book in order get more readers, well, that’s a bit difficult for me. I’m a bit socially awkward. I mean I can come off as extremely social if I put in the effort but then I get mentally exhausted and all I want to do the next day is stay at home and be at peace with myself.

Sometimes, I have trouble finding the right words to say – that’s why I love writing because I have the time to think about what I want to say as opposed to when I’m in a verbal conversation with someone. I’m working on this. In order to succeed in what I want to succeed in, I know I will be needing to talk to a bunch of people. It’s just harder for me than most people who have the social skills to succeed.

I am an activist.

No, I do not go around destroying things. I believe that the world has so much more it can improve on. I believe human rights are essential. I believe there shouldn’t be a distinction between genders and so I say I am a feminist. I am not proud of living in a world where people are exploited constantly. I want to help our environment because I believe we are making it worse. I want to help give future generations the opportunity to live in a more just world – one without all that violence we see on the news and all the violence we may see in our daily lives.

Now, I am asking you. What does finding yourself mean to you?  


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1 comment

  • fauxcroft

    I love this. It really resonates with me. I am a poet and a writer and have tried and still trying to self publish but you are right, marketing is everything and I know nothing about it.

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